My parents were separated when I was still a baby. My grandmother was the one who raised me up and took care of me. When my grandmother died when I was still studying in high school, my life began to change since I have to continue my studies without my grandmother beside me. I became independent and mature enough as I go on with my life. I was raised strictly by my grandmother. She was very strict but I thanked her for that because that made me became strong and made me became responsible.
However, I do have that ups and downs in my life specially when somebody would ask me about my family. Many people would say that I am blessed because my parents specially my mom is always there to support me financially. Yes I could say that I am financially blessed because every month my mom will send money where I could also buy anything that I want. But my life is still empty because I never felt how it feels like to have a complete and united family. My family is my weakness. When people asked me where my parents are, I find it hard to explain and I am hurting deep inside because I don’t want to talk about my family. My heart breaks every time I think of my family. Every time I see a happy family together, it breaks my heart because I have been longing for a happy and united family. I also want to experience what it feels like having a mother and a father.
Despite of my weaknesses, my life still continues. I remember when I was in college, I transferred to another city and lived in an apartment. I met some new friends who have all the vices in them. Some of them came from a broken family too where they are also receiving monthly allowances from their parents. But they used it in a wrong way where they spend their money on their vices. They have been trying to influence me, dragging me down, keep on telling me some negative thoughts, but I was never influenced by them. I always keep it in mind that whatever happens,I have to look at the positive and the brighter side of life. My goal is to finish my studies… and I did it! I showed and proved it to myself that I can do it without my parents guidance.
When I met my boyfriend Michael who is now my beloved husband, my life was completely changed. I used to be a liberated girl before where I usually dressed in sexy clothes. Michael is a such a conservative person. And because I love him, I follow what he wants. He changed the way I dress. Aside from the changes of my physical appearance, the big impact in my life where he changed me is my faith with God. I was longing for the love of my parents and I am thankful to him that he comfort me and helped me understand how God loves me. I remember these verse from the Bible from the book of Psalms that he shared to me, “When your mother and your father had forsaken you, then the Lord will take care of you”. That verse made me cry and made me think and realize that God is always there for me.
When we got married, we have a happy and harmonious relationship because we always place God at the center of our marriage. Our relationship was even more blessed when our fruit of love came out on this world…our lovely daughter. Every thing changes when you have already have a child. But we were happy for that changes because it made us became a good parent.
These are all the many changes in my life. I am a survivor, a fighter, and an independent woman and by God’s grace, I had able to overcome all the trials in my life. And I thanked God for that.
I could say that I am blessed financially, materially, spiritually and physically. And speaking of physically, I have a huge changes in my physical appearance since I gave birth. I gained a lot of weight that’s why I still need to change it. Though my hubby loves my chubbiness right now since I was so skinny before but I still need change my lifestyle where I have to control what I eat and I have to do some rigid exercise training at the gym or at home. I would like to change it for my own good.
This is my official blog entry to Thirty on 30 “Changes in My Life” Blog Contest
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